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Even When

I am fighting to find a balance between keeping my old friends and making new ones, I keep feeling like theres no way I can have both.
All my energy has been going into people lately.
Old school buddies that are only down for a couple days.
Relatives with birthday parties.
Jr highers constantly on sugar highs.
Siblings needing advice or someone to lash out at.
Friends I see on a regular basis.

None of these people have done anything wrong.
I love seeing them because, chances are they've been a huge blessing in my life.
I just feel like I'm burning out.
I can't give everyone attention.
There isn't enough time in my day.
I wish I could give every person the time they deserve.
But there's no way I can do it.
By nature, I'm a people pleaser.
I would rather see others happy.
And now that I can't do that...
I feel like Im failing as a friend.

I've totally been neglecting some of the greatest people in the world.
And some of these people, I know, will take it personally.
All I can say is that I love each of you.


I'm trying my best.