18

Even When

Life seems stable, events happen simultaneously that shake my world.

I have been growing and expecting change to happen.
WANTING it to happen.

But selfishly I thought it would be easier than this.
I thought I would see changes in the things I wanted to see changed.
It's hard to get through these events when I think this way.


This week I was asked to do something I have never done before.
Fast.
Or, give up something I've grown dependent on.
Lent.

I am struggling with what I should give up.
All I can do is wait for it to be revealed to me.
However, I know I need to do this.
It's been a long needed week focusing on God alone.
With everything that has just piled on in my life, I didn't take the time to call out for help.
Instead of giving it all to the one who asks for my burdens, I throw them on others or keep them to myself.


I'll be listening to God this week.
If I'm not going to be filled by earthly food, I'll get fed somewhere else.




On the post script note,
I need to be a better friend.
And I need to let go of the sarcasm.
It's beginning to hurt people.