Even When
everything is in place and has a good balance, I feel something tugging at my heart.
I have this incredible urge to get up and leave.
Just run across the planet and jump into the universe.
Days like this don't happen too often, but when they do, they consume me.
If God were to call me somewhere other than here, I would have no problem sprinting to the destination.
What scares me...
completely freaks me out...
shakes me until I jolt awake at night...
is staying.
Staying here.
Not being wanted for more than this desert.
That will be the biggest challenge of all.
Accepting where it is I'm meant to be.
1 comment:
It's never easy when God points you in a direction you don't want to go (haha we learned this from Jonah. The hardest thing God ever made me do was stay here in the desert after graduation. No matter how much I fought it, I needed to be here. I hated most of my time here and when I had the chance to leave, I couldn't get out fast enough. Funny, I even said I would NEVER move back to the desert...My prayer for you is that you will find that peace that comes from understanding that God is in control and that He will carry you through the hard times. I pray that unlike me, you won't allow bitterness and fear to consume you. I know God will grant you the desires of your heart in His timing. Until then, I love you and love that you are here, blessing em every time I think about you.
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