Even When
it's not me, it is.
How much should a person be made available?
I was asked a question once: What is the most common false first impression people have of you?
After giving it some serious thought (though, that was not intended) I decided that people most commonly mistake my lack of verbal communication as a personal attack of hate towards them.
Now, when I bring this up some responses I receive are:
"It's not your problem."
"You shouldn't care what others think of you."
"People are stuuuupid."
(True. True. Up for debate.)
I came to the realization that I have locked myself in a box.
Whatever square shaped image forms in your mind initially is fine, but let me assure you that it is undeniably locked.
Personally, I envision myself as a mime, in an imaginary box that is, like I said, locked.
I do not speak. I do not leave my self created holding cell. The only thing I can do is provide gestures to those observing.
The phrase "actions speak louder than words" came to mind.
I don't want to undermine the power of speech.
When used correctly, words can give just as strong of a statement.
Even though I may not be phased by people's interpretations of my silence.
No matter if I take no interest in their view of me.
And we can skip that final one...
Basically, what I'm getting at is this.
I am constantly attempting to better myself.
That's what this blog is helping me do.
"Even When" bad happens, wonderful can comes from it.
Likewise, "Even When" good happens, terrible can throw it down.
There is an equilibrium, a balance.
Our words are valuable. How many or few we choose to use, may they be ones that lift up instead of tear down.
(To those that I may have offended, I apologize.)
I'm working on it.
