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Even When

Growing didn't seem like an option, God found a way around my dissapointment and worked in me.

He never ceases to amaze me.
He is so much bigger than we know, and I am constantly being reminded of that.

Although, this was one of my loneliest weeks, I haven't felt more comforted or whole.
If there was anything I got out of this week, it is that silence is not only amazing and a blessing, but truly powerful.
Never have I ever heard the thunderous silence like that night.
It was so profound that I couldn't hold emotion back any longer.


My writings of that night: [Simple and to the point]

God spoke to me through the light of a star.
As I stared at it, the light brightened and all else dissapeared.
This is the most intimate moment I've ever encountered with God.
I believe this is the closest I'll ever get to Him until I die.
From now on I will eagerly await the nights He calls me and singles out His wonderous star to talk with me with the intensity I felt tonight.
Nothing else mattered in this world.
Although my focus was holding on to God, Satan fought for my attention as well.
And a battle raged in my mind.
But my glorious Saviour won.
Now that the distractions were set aside I could hear Him.
What does He want from me?
Kim, I will do Big Things with you. You may have to sacrifice some things for me, like your marriage. I want you to fully commit to my work, for I will never lead you to harm. Grab hold of your new friend, Shelby, you will need each other. Do not be afraid of public speaking, there is no need.
When our night began I struggled to clear my head of things I wanted answered and had to listen to what God wanted and needed to tell me.
Because up until that point I hadn't been listening very well.
Patience, dear child, when the time comes I will unveil my will for you. Watch for my star, and listen with your heart.
The time lingered, but I felt there wasn't enough of it.
I was fixated forever, but forever was coming to an end.
I knew the camp wouldn't allow me to stay out much longer, and our time together was coming to an end.
Amazing Grace came on over the intercom and to say 'I love you too' to my wonderful worthy Father, I sang.




That is a night that will never leave me.
I will always hold those fifteen minutes near to my heart, and pray that everyone can have moments in their life like I had.
My Lord and Saviour is amazing.