7

Even When

Talking calms, a comforting embrace erases all unsure feelings.

Family is one of the blessings I take for granted.
Each of them is truly wonderful and nothing short of amazing.
With every passing year, a new and deeper love fully saturates my relationship with them.
We are completely different, yet so similar.


I have the perfectly imperfect family.

Without the bad times, growing would be impossible.
And through these I witness how strong my family is.




Divert from topic:
Interesting...

What are your greatest fears? The wrath of God, what else is there to fear?

Alas, I'm heading on a journey up north.

6

Even When

Writing sounds like fun, it somehow ends up online.
[Here's an attempt.]

The static gets louder with every passing second
Familiar faces have been drained
I witness hearts being torn out
With a lightning cackle following through the bones

A daily mess for the night crew to sweep
All because of of these ficticious whisperings
Yet, the victims return knowing their fate
A heart can be squeezed dry only so many times

I now know that they are not the weak
That word is left for the master of destruction
The trigger happy demon will soon see
The spirit can not be broken




Oh, &

Don't put a smile on your face just to make the world a better place.
This is life, no faking allowed.

5

Even When

The best were chosen, doubts raged in this mind.

I am terrified, because all I see is failure ahead.
As the week grows closer, my weaknesses are the only things that stand out.
How am I going to do this?

Although I have amazing help from the rest of the staff, I can't help but feel apprehensive about the entire situation.
I know that this experience is going to stretch me, and will most likely be one of the Ebenezer stones in my life, but I don't feel well equipped to take on this large of a task.

These are the spiritual lives of fifteen [+/-] girls here.

I want to do this, I do.
I just don't want to ruin anything.
I hope I can handle it.

To God be the glory.

4

Even When


I thought I was a good example, I was wrong.

In the morning I want to know what I can do to make you happy.
As the night takes me into my slumber, please tell me what I did to make you sad.

I want clarity in what the Ebenezer stones of my life are.
Each defining moment.


Prayer works.

Just do it.
[Now, follow your own advice Kim]

3

Even When

I am told not to worry, I fill myself more with this feeling.
Especially when told by an uneasy, unconvincing voice.
As would any decent person.

It isn't assurance I want.
It's trust.

Is this not what most people desire in their friends?
I want to be able to rely on the integrity, strength, ability and surety of a person.

Accountability & Responsibility & Vulnerability & Risk

As it turns out, in order to receive a person's trust, I must put my trust in them.


I have been unfair. [No matter how unfair the world may be, I want to do my best in making it the opposite.]
My friendships have been selfish, and I need to set things right.
It's a two-way street.
My friends deserve better.



I will be...

2

Even When.

You've been cooped up for days, you feel no desire to escape.

Let go of the familiar and risk it all.
We have choices.
It may not seem that important, but it's what we have.
This is what freedom is all about.
We can, and must exercise our right to, choose.

Our choices are what define us.
Not our measly words, but what we put into action.
And how we handle the consequences.


Use your choices to secure something bigger, and make them count.

You don't have to save the world.

1

Even When.

The world has a negative air, I can still find reason to smile.
Although we're deteriorating, we will never die.
Our bodies to the world, and our souls to the Lord.
Never lose sight, never fear.

Trust Him.