What is with my inability to truly seek God?
There should be absolutely no reason for my procrastination.
Every mountain top encounter I have experienced has left me breathless and wanting a deeper relationship and understanding with my first love, my creator.
I seem to be stuck in the mud... again.
This is one of my character flaws. When I am comfortable I don't feel a need to progress.
If things are working out exactly where they are, what is the point of shaking things around, right?
Wrong.
Life is all about the challenges, the stumbling blocks, falling on our knees, our entire being should feel as though it's crumbling brick by brick. We need to be there. We need to be stripped, bare breasted, completely vulnerable. That is where the true most significant change can be not only seen, but engrained in us. A good habit is formed that will last.
I know exactly what I SHOULD be seeking. I have a desire to follow my intention.
My earthly face is holding me back.
I am full of lust. Full of it.
I am selfish.
I put myself high on a pedestal.
I am guilty of sloth and envious of others.
I have wicked thoughts on a semi-regular basis.
How do I rid my heart and body of this filth?
Seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek seek Him.
I still do not have an accountability partner.
I need one.
I do not have the will power to do this on my own.
I'm human.
Nothing more.
But
Nothing less either.
Topic shift:
"God made dirt, and dirt don't hurt" right?
God made man out of dirt. He breathed life into our nostrils.
Man don't hurt?
I say false.
Man hurts man.
I don't think I'll be using that saying much anymore.
And lastly, my favorite quote of the week:
"How you treat the creation reflects how you feel about the creator." from Rob Bell's Sex God
So pertainate to not only the earth and how we choose to handle the enviornment, not only animals and our treatment towards them, but most importantly God's most prized creation, man. How we treat each other reflects how we feel about God, our father, our creator... their father and their creator.
