23

Even When

good things happen, theres a price to pay for them later.
Have you ever noticed that?

I just feel so selfish.
Maybe what seems good really isn't what you need.
Maybe it isn't good for other people involved.
But how can you ever know?

You can't.

It's one thing to make a mistake...by mistake.
It's another to go into something knowing you're going to make a mistake... and not being able to change that fact.
[ I think mistake is the wrong word to use.]

I can already tell that this is going to be one of blocks of life that is going to stretch me.
Better yet, it's going to catapult me into a destination that is unknown.

And that's what life is, right?

Knowing that you have no idea what is going to happen next, but having the faith to press onward and find out.

[We'll go with... a working definition. ]


Time reveals a lot about yourself.
That seems like an agreeable statement.

In the time I've been alotted, I know one thing that is true about myself.

I would rather be hurt than hurt another.

I think in finding out who I am, I've created phobias.
Because, that's who I think I am.
I am a person who is afraid of: hurting others, not seeing loved ones in heaven, being a bad mother, and public speaking.


"You Never Let Go" by Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You




Why the frown?
You know you look better when it's upside down.

22

Even When

Conflict, adversity, trials and tribulations are pushed into our lives, the holidays always show me the brighter side.

I adore fall and winter.
I regain energy.
I inhale a new breath of life.

Although it seems to be the most stressful time of year for the bulk of society, the only stress I feel is the need to stress that this is the most wonderful time of the year.


I can feel the holidays bringing in something memorable.
Whether it be good or bad, I'll continue to enjoy this season.